my exam brain just made me stare at a thing from auctions for 5 minutes wondering why the heck i couldnt bid on is AS THE ONLY THING in auctions until i realized i already was the highest bidder and i bid on it before i left for my exam earlier oops

it's so cold outside but it smells like stressed med student the day before an exam who's also on her period in my dorm room so i have to let in some new air

scary stuff

i turn into 12 year old kat whenever i don't win comps on here even though the rational part of my brain knows there's like 0.0001% chance of me winning i just get sad :,)
my bf entered the other comp just to win the outit for me when he saw me getting sad though i love him

i am like 99% sure i will pass my exam on friday but i'm already starting to get nervous and i feel like if i TRY to study i will stress-study and that's a complete waste of time so like.... what to do
i go for a walk instead