After years of years of studying life science, I have finally come to the conclusion that I need to spend more time caring for myself. It has been so exhausting and time-consuming, that I have given up bits and pieces of myself, and reduced everything that used to be me, to the tiny core of values and skills necessary to get through my studies.
The next year will not only be my last year at the university, but it will also be the first year in a long time that is going to be about me. Making sure my Master's thesis does not consume all of my time and energy.
It started this week. I had my first workout in over a month, and I started writing my first novel in years, one of the creative activities I loved to do when I was younger, even if I never finished any projects. Together with reading, it was the only place I would feel free, where I could step outside of my normal, sad life, and be someone else, someone loved and cherished, someone who had a purpose or a place in this world. Someone that mattered.
Today, I do not have the same deep thoughts about the process. I just want to enjoy myself, take time to relax, and not drown in everyday activities of studying and improving myself for a future job search.

Things can only improve if you try. I am determined to try.
Lets see how it goes

Yesterday, I officially started my master's thesis! Looking forward to 10 months of exciting lab work and great company.
Got a lot of stuff on my plate, but I know that I can make it happen :)
The hard part will be remembering to take time off and enjoy all the other aspects of life.
I have a feeling that this is going to be great

Today we had another argument. I guess living in a shared apartment with my brother- and sister-in-law just does not work for us anymore. We all want different things in our lives, everyone has different lifestyles and routines, which are now colliding with each other.
I am both happy, excited, and sad to move out by the end of the year. The four of us have shared many great moments together, but now it's time to each live our own lives, to keep and maintain a healthy relationship with each other.
When one chapter has played out, another begins.
I am so happy and grateful for the opportunity to get this experience, but now it is time to move on and start a new life together with my boyfriend in our own house.
I will cherish these last few months of living together with his siblings, and look forward to our bright future together as a couple


Stay positive out there